MY STORY is not much different from yours or anyone else's. We come into this       physical, mental, emotional body - there is love - wonderful and amazing moments - hard and sometimes unbearable, unfathomable moments. And depending on our individual combination of nature, nurture and destiny - we process the events that pass through our life differently - this is how each our unique conditioning is formed.

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Conditioning determines how we respond to life. Reactions like stress, sadness, depression, anxiety, fear, devastation, anger or sometimes physical illness - are often referred to as negative. However - I refer to these responses as keys to transcending - as invitations - gateways - or road signs showing the way to the Eternal Joy that we are.

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My individual story goes something like this: Childhood was a magical time, but far from easy. I was raised by parents who had no religion and no spiritual inclination whatsoever. I felt lost and without ground. In my early teens, I constructed my own religion — I decided I believed in Truth, and my practice consisted of looking for Truth in absolutely everything. I questioned every single thought, emotion, sensation, action, reaction, interaction, and situation. In the beginning, I was not always successful in discerning Truth, and sometimes I was not sincere. But I faced my dishonesty, and as time went on I was able to recognize Truth more often and I chose Truth — in every circumstance — at any emotional, relational, situational or financial expense.

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I have always had amazing friends. But I am also a loner. Between my early teens and early thirties, I spent many hours each day untangling my conditioning, facing my shadows, and contemplating the Universe. I had a wonderful twelve-year-long marriage, and I have two awesome young adults. But yes! I have been through - and survived - the classic, intense, exhausting and unbelievably common teen parenting challenges.

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After an amicable divorce in 2007, I was launched onto an extraordinarily difficult solo journey.  For about six years I was a wreck - barely keeping my head above the surface - it was the dark night of the soul.  What kept me going was my desire to be available for my children and my desperate longing to find the Ultimate Truth.

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Fall of 2012—Under the guidance of one of my teachers, my search finally came to an end.  I saw the Ultimate Truth - what I am; what you are, what we all are.  I was surprised at the simplicity of the recognition, and immensely euphoric after having found that for which I had been passionately yearning for nearly forty years.  What followed felt like one long and huge exhale which lasted for almost an entire year.

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Slowly, the ecstatic bliss morphed into a stable, peaceful joy.  And a much welcomed side effect of coming to recognize our Source - is that suddenly life is uncomplicated, light and clear.  Although pain and challenges still come - or rather - the opportunity to continue transcending our karma and ego continuous - there is no such thing as suffering, depression or loneliness anymore.  And from the seat of Source, the resuming inner revolution is much easier, surprisingly manageable, comparatively balanced, and actually exciting.

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Six months after my initial shift I wrote the book "Chasing The High and The Ecstasy of Coming down." Writing it was a love affair.  Essentially the book is about finding the ceaseless joy which is independent of exterior circumstances. "Chasing The High and The Ecstasy of Coming Down" is intended as a toolbox for life. 

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As my Love for continued Awakening took over - I decided to slow down my film editing business of twenty five years - and join the steadily growing world wide community who shares my love for The Unknown Universal Intelligence.  I have created FIVE MEDITATION CLASSES you can listen to for free from this website.  I also share my personal spiritual journey through the POETRY BLOG on this site. Beyond these offers I do not feel it is time for me to teach, So instead I offer LINKS to spiritual teachers who blow me away.  Since summer of 2019, with both my children out of the nest, I live in gratitude on a mountain top in central Portugal.