Free Will

At my absolute lowest

when EVERYTHING

is lost

enslaved

on the unforgiving wheel

my desires

unhealed wounds

and other unconscious whims

control my every move

and Free Will is seen

for the illusion

it always was

check mated

by karma

I give up

collapsing

in this devastating mud

fear overwhelms

but on an exhale

I surrender

into the Truth

anyway

a flash flood of tears

drowns all resistance

to pain

here

the sweet burn of regret

heals

and forgives

my senseless self

how loud

the Peace

after the fire

clears the clutter

and how soothing

the Silence

transforming turmoil

into Light

I join this Light

it is me

no doubt

so why

do I keep

leaving?

I trust

I flow

and Know

that nothing

is an accident

in this Divine screenplay

I call Life

here

my role

is a responsibility

an honor

and a gift

to the inseparable web

of you and me and everyone

of this and that and God

so self reliance too then

is an illusion

I cannot alone

anymore than the flower blooms

without the sun

how humbling

that I must ask

so that you

get the opportunity

to give

on my knees in gratitude

and absolute awe

for the JOY

always patiently waiting for me

to be still

enough

to remember

that my only FREEDOM

is the CHOICE

to stay home

the only choice

I ever had

was

to STAY HOME

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